heya~ jez came home? well, kinda.. yeapx.. went to jie's graduation ceremony today? yea.. it was held at the UCC.. commencement 2003.. yea.. twas cool? i mean, when i was in the robing room, helping or rather, trying to make myself useful while she was getting ready, i was like in awe? i mean, the whole room was filled with grads.. will it ever be my turn? about 4 years time? if i make it? yea.. was cool really, she's come such a long way till today? am really proud of her.. yeapx.. i am.. anyway.. yea.. then during the ceremony, i mean, it was kinda boring? cuz all they do is introduce each an everyone? ya.. so it was kinda boring la.. haha.. da jie was happily playing on ju jie's palm? happily.. ha.. yea.. an when her name was called out.. it was like.. wow? "Ng Ju Li Esther..." wonder what it'l be like if you change the "ju" to a "kim"? an the "esther" to a "edna"? wow.. was trying to picture it in my head? wow.. then ya.. the jies were happily like "it'l be your turn next?" that kinda thing? now they are all grads? the next is supposedly me? i really really wanna make it? sighx~

anyway.. mey yuchun there? i jez found out her name really.. but ya. so qiao? heez.. anyway.. towards the end of the ceremony, they actually let down balloons from the ceiling? orange an blue balloons totally filled the whole place? twas really cool! an like, i was seated somewhere near where the opening of the thingy was? an ya.. basically was totally surrounded by balloons? there were really A LOT of them? swear.. yea.. was cool? never seem so many balloons in my life? or rather, never been surrounded by soooo many of them? they were like chest high? wow.. so pretty? but then people started bursting them, so it got irritating.. ha~

anyway.. went to holland V to chill after that? i like.. chilling with my sisters? heez.. they kinda pay for everything.. haha.. but ya.. its been a long time since we'v went out? mmmx.. i miss the feeling.. ;) an ya.. being at holland really brought back memories of sc life? i love walkin about in that ol place above cold storage? yea.. i jez love the things there? yeapx.. real cool an all y'know? heez.. but ya.. saw something that i thought he'd like? its nothing really, but when i saw it, totally reminded me of him? kinda wish he'd jez appear in front of me tho? heez.. silly me..

anyway.. totally doesn feel like a sat at all? wow.. but it was a nice experience? esp now? yea.. makes me really wanna work hard? sighx.. i really dun wanna let all of them down? i mean, ya.. dun wanna let myself down too? i dunno.. sighx..

yea.. things are getting better between all of us? my family that is? gettin along much better with ju jie now? an ya.. its nice talking to da jie? without having to vie for her attention? with the kids or ju jie? nice to jez stand around an bitch about people with her? haha.. its been too long.. waaay too long? an ya.. things between mimi an i are better too? wish i could say the same bout me an pa? but hey, one miracle at a time? yeapx.. hope i dun jinx it all by saying this out? heez.. yea.. am happy.. *blissful smile*

anyway.. really tired? physically drained? yea.. shalln stay on too long? yeapx.. when will i see you again?
haix~

love ya~