i dont feel well..
feel.. empty.
sad.
not me..
what's wrong?

met clive. at jay mac? he's kinda upset.. sighx. i guess it kinda got to me too? i dont know why. started tearing there. what's wrong with me. i think im really falling ill or something. so sorry clive. ended up as if you had to take care of me? 'stead of the other way round? sighx. so sorry. but ya. whats wrong with me. why cant i just be happy. happy. seemed like such a long time ago. things just arent the same.. that i should understand so so well. but understanding is totally different from being able to accept it.. yea.. that's it.