i slept at 3 last night. an im awake already.. have been since 8.30 really.. sheesh. i really know how to torture myself man.. but nah la.. had to go get some things from this fella.. jujie got him to bring back to us? yea.. silly jie..

yeapx. once again. got emotional when i read her letter. sighx. i miss her? sighx.. yea. i do. mmm.. its so weird. its bloody christmas eve but i still dont feel a thing? i really dont? sighx. i dont like this. just totally not looking forward to tmr at all? an furthermore, its not that i have anyone to spend it with? like, family? bah. they are all fakers. my extended family that is.. i mean, yea.. esp now that i know more? *blerghx* just kills the christmas spirit.

oh great. i can just picture myself now. all ol' an bitter an lonely on christmas.. but seriously man. christmas was more fun when i was young. an now that jujie isnt around. its worse? sighx. like at least she used to bring me to christmas mass? i mean, yea. made me feel more christmassy. an all the carols she used to play? an that lil tree she'd put up an take down again the next day? [so that it doesnt give the cats much time to play with it. haha..] i mean.. sighx

i hope she doesn get too lonely? cuz.. yea. i love her