thanx for reminding me man.. sighx. not that i blame you or anything.. just that. well.. i could have done without the reminder. you could'v just seen my "happy-o-meter" drop all the way? sighx..

i really wanted to. but for what? what would that have achieved? nothing at all. just more pain perhaps. but.. i really thought i was alright.

guess i thought wrong once again..

when will i finally prove myself right?