well.. i think i think too much. <--see. perfect example.

sighx. i should just not think at all i think. erm. cant seem to stop typing think. maybe if i type it a few more times, it'd stop appearing in my head. so yea. think think think think think think think. yeapx.

sighx. sucks? cuz all the while, you are just questioning things. wondering. going round in circles. wandering about an all.. yea. just wish that i could be more certain of myself. of my life. wish i could just stop doubting my existance here. nono. im not saying i lack confidence. i think i pretty much have sufficient amounts of that, thankew very much.

but well. i suppose [trying not to use "think"] im just making things more confusing than they really really are? for myself? yea.. its like living in a state of perpetual confusion. doubt. worry. dashed hopes? yea.. i guess that too.

mmm.. i dunno. maybe it'd come with age. maybe with age i wouldn have so much time to think. maybe with age, these lil things would no longer bother me so. but yea.

oh. an i also think i talk to myself too much. haha.

ah well, fight club's on now. what more can i ask for? brad pitt and edward norton. or however you spell his name. an my gawd. the loudspeaker thingo on the phone rawks. haha.. *weee* i mean, as i speak, techno music is blasting outta my phone? eh? hahha.. class is playing techno. but well, its retro techno. so i suppose its justified. haha

oh ya. is jay still singing? or is it just me? i cant seem to hear me anymore. i think its that webby that i got him from. that mseals thingy. hmmm.. but i dont like power web. cuz the bloody popups just kill my comp man. so mmm.. tis gonna be realllly quiet now.