ugh. i was gonna wake up today. an blog about what an ass i'v been. that i was being silly. that my mood was unjustified. that i should just snap outta it.

but look. ugh! my gawd. all i want to do is mope about at home today. in peace. then go out with sugar'baby an co. tmr, an be happy. but noooo.. the kids are coming over today. an i dont even know about it.

i mean. look. you know i love my nephews. but do you know how much work i have to put into to prepare for their arrival? i mean, magiclean the floor an all. so its not much work. but when you are down in the dumps, it is kz. an i wish someone would at least tell me in advance. so i could do something about my dump'y'ness or something.

then early in the morning. at what, 8.50!? my neighbour calls to look for my mom. an at just a while ago. mimi calls.. an she's really being unreasonable. i hate it. its fucking hell too early in the morning for this. im still hungover from last night's moodswings dammit. ugh. [shit. now that just looks like "moods-wings" instead of "mood-swings"]

ugh. now i dont even have the mood to bitch about yesterday. argh. an yes. i have to go for some fucking malay wedding at my void deck. look. i dont even smile at them on normal days. i hate this. if i smile at them, i still dont mind. i dont know them! argh.

at least class95's playing cool music now. wonder what this song is. anyway, its gonna be an all 90s weekend. so its gonna be rocking.

but yes. all i hope for is my nephews to cheer me up. please dont let them be cranky an all. but its early in the day. i doubt they would be. so yea. pls pls pls.

mmm. somehow? andy msg'd me last night? woah. its been like how long since he last msg'd me. wow. an eugene'sweetie too. eugene's the best la. yea.. come to think of it.. feel bad that i didn talk to him an all.. but yea. im sure he understands? i hope? but its like, i only go to him when i have problems. am bad. but mmm.. what did i do to deserve sucha fabby friend like him?

everyone actually.. but mmm.. that whole "dont be sad" thing. i mean.. how do i put it. its like, denying me of my most basic of emotions? everyone goes thru this shit? so its just my turn now.. but.. i dunno. im just thinking too much. dont wanna be ungrateful. sighx.

pls let it be an alright day. i have no mood to put up with anymore shit. have to be a shunu for sugar'baby tmr. *weak smiles*