bah. just got off the phone with mimi. she's like how naggy can? i mean. argh. dunno what's gotten into me also. dunno what made me snap at her? now feeling guilty. sighx. goodness. im sucha moron sometimes

anyway. supposed to meet with with swas tmr.. she just suddenly called me on sunday? gave me a shock. turns out that she came back cuz her mom attempted suicide. wow. an she's like "no la, she's just playing".. haiyo. that's so swas.. to put things in sucha manner?

ah well. really havent met with with her in eons. she's closer to celine an lauren anyway. so yea. the fact is she actually called me.. so yea. waiting for her to confirm time an all tmr..

wonder what's happening with rosie. used to be so close to her.. then now.. its like she's become a totally different person really. feel like she changed. then again, maybe i changed too.. that we changed in opposite directions? an the differences between the two of us have become more pronounced? sighx. its not that i want things to be like that too.. between all of us. but i'd have to admit, i def dont put that much effort into our friendship. so yea.. its my fault i suppose. sighx

whatever

i love my friends. i do. i hope you all know that. mmm.. love my family more. hope they know that too..

y'know what i really need right now? i need to tan. need to soak up the vitaminD. anti-depressant man. grrr