mimi and the jies are leaving for ol' thai laters. hope they have fun.. an well.. everything goes well? erm. ya. sighx.
 
bah. im in a mess right now. i know what is the right thing for me to do.. but i cant seem to convince myself that that's what i actually want. call me materialistic. but i dont know dammit. i do not know! if i did. i wouldn be rambling here.. grrr
 
i hate this. i just wanna curl up and like, totally vegetate. sighx. i'v gotta make a decision soon. really soon. i hate this. i wish i was more bloody focused.. 'stead of being just this messed up me
 
just hope later goes well. that i'd get my way.. without too must fuss and muss.. sighx. how'd it be? definately for the better..
 
come to think of it. doubt pa would like it. sighx. but.. argh. forget it. maybe i'l update when iv thought things thru? this aint going anywhere. what do i want? fuck. not this life. 
 
and its celine's birthday today.. but i dont even know where she is.. i suppose she's still in japan with swas. wow.
 
think i'l go sleep with jujie tonight. sighx. i need a hug.