oops. the day is over. what the heck. bloody gloomy day.. i haveta admit.. its nice an cold an all.. but im a sunny sorta girl man.. and i really dont appreciate the "sleep in" weather when i have school an tuition an what not. bah. i sound cranky. but im not. i swear.

anyhoo. i seem to have been accepted into that group. erm. *weee?* i dunno. ahahha. i mean. its nice to have people around to talk an all.. to bitch. to laugh.. but well.. do i really want that? hahha.. omg. to think i used to be this girl who's so damn freaking afraid to do things alone an now here i am.. being a loner?

i wonder what they think of me.. its just me to wonder? i too would like a life, where i can just do my thang.. an not give a hoot about what others think? but that's just so not me. so yea.. here i am wondering. i am aware that my neutral face is just downright blur/gong/lost. whatever. so what. they are thinking im this lost lil' girl? but im not man. i really am not. the real me is like, all cooped up inside? supressed? maybe that's why im exceptionally mad when im out with the other people? *hohum*

but yea. im still resisting. "hey.. sit with me?" "erm.. no thanx.." and then i proceed to immediately regret that. grrr. make up your mind girl!

anyway. the new guy came today. speaks well. but he looks like ian sheng. just much uglier. ahaha. an he sorta reminds me of jem. just much uglier.. ahahaha. not saying that he's ugly. but well. not good looking. *dammit* but really. is it just me? or does everyone just seem to remind me of ian sheng? good gawds.

mmm.. had a dream just now while i napped. mmm.. dreamnt of pa? i think he said something like "what's with all your accents?" ahahah.. an then we were laughing an all.. but things were so different in the dream.. joking about stuffs an clowning around? how not like reality.. sigh.. mmm.. i guess a dream is really a wish your heart makes..