hate feeling helpless. like i can't do anything at all. its not that i don't wanna? its either i can't cuz they don't let me in? or i simply do not have the means to.

gawds. i hate this reality. i wish i could retreat back into my lil' world.
where everything is just peachy and it'l never rain.

instead of this. its all just rotten peaches. where it never rains.. it pours.

it's all a facade. and i'm hating it.