i swear i love my nails. who cares if they are looking exceedingly lian.
i like it dammit. i'm unleashing my inner lian. rawr!

ah well. new year's. and i'm at home at this hour.. 'tis soo wrong man. and this morning.. i woke up thinking that it was just another day..
what's happened to the new year's of ol'? ugh. am hating this..

went over to pa's office so the kids could bai nian.. when we were driving away, with pa waving us off.. i could feel a tear coming up. sighs..
this is not how new year's should be.. and last night just doesn't help

the only salvation was danny and claire i suppose.. we talked an all.. at least it still feels normal.. tho its a great difference from all the games we used to play.. and seeing the attention being showered on the lil' ones, instead of us? but aie, we're old now. relatively so at least..

uncle mark took a piccy for us. hmmm. its been a while

well, the neighbourhood is the same. the faces too.. but, i dunno. everything seems so cold. so foreign now.. i wish i could still be the oblivious lil me and pretend that nothing's wrong.. that everything's fine and dandy.. i don't know what to make of all this also. sighs.