econs.. 我的最爱.. but why do i still feel so disheartened?

and the other subjects. sighs.. the more i read, the more i realise i don't know shites.. the more i hear them discuss, the more lost i get.. i have this much to study. but suddenly, it feels like so much more.

studying with those people = bad. bad bad bad. they make me feel so totally unprepared. erm, wait.. so is that a good thing or a bad thing?

i suppose i should get out to study more. expose myself to my inadequacies. hopefully it'l have a positive effect on me, and spur me on the study even more.. but we all know that wouldn't happen huh?

and my body clock's seriously screwy. you would think i'd be pooped from a day out "studying". 12.30pm-2.15am.. that's like, almost 13hr 45mins worth. but then again, its more of a 12 hours study session la. a 1hr 45min discount for all the breaks i took. haha.

i'm thinking now whether the past 12 hours were of any use man.

i must be doing something wrong *pouts*

one more week to figure out what that is. ugh. totally incoherent entry. hello? look at the clock now? i just need to rant. rant rant rant.