S-O-S please someone help me,
it's not healthy for me to feel this
Y-O-U-R making this hard
you got me tossing and turning can't sleep at night


the paranoia is killing me. i can't seem to look at the better side of a person anymore. everything is tinted with doubt. it sucks. but i can't help it. perhaps i wasn't meant to get into this in the first place.

guess i really am just a lil' girl playing with fire.

i know this isn't what i'm looking for.. but i can't help it anyway. i know if i was standing on the outside looking in.. i'd be berating myself for not doing the "right thing". but i just feel so stuck. so torn.

hate the way i'm reduced to putty in his hands. this dependency. jeez. everything about this is wrong. but i suppose this is reality huh?