mmmx.. oops i did it again..? ahahah.. yea.. woke at like ermx, 5.06? ahaha.. in the afternoon? woah.. talk about nua man.. but ya.. sorry la.. ahaha.. really tired waaad....

anywayx.. my tagboard thingy is down.. hmpfx.. why.. blerghx.. anyway.. ya.. i dunno? im feeling that empty thing again.. yea.. ahaha.. how fickle my mind is? im jez feeling weird? i guess its chi zao de shi? but yea.. still weird nonetheless? i mean.. sighx.. i d'not know what i mean.. aiya.. anyway... ya la.. im feeling weird now? like i d'not know what i want an all? i wish i knew? i wish i could be more sure stuffx sometimes? aiya.. dunno la.. i think zhechao knows? he kinda let slip last night? an well, ya.. obv i know how he knew? an like.. i dunno? does he? or am i xiang-ing too much? ahaha.. yea.. that part was so dumb? ahaha.. he told me that i'd have "competition" or something like that? ahaha.. thats so dumb.. or something la huh? cant really remb that well.. ahahah.. everything last night was like a blur? anyway.. ya.. bout what zhechao said? i know? yea.. its not that im living in my own lil world all the time? i know? an i guess thats what makes me feel insecure sometimes? or maybe insecure is the wrong word? cuz iv never felt secure in the first place? but yea.. perhaps jealous? woah.. or is that too much? but yea.. something like that? but ya.. i do know? an thats what sucks sometimes? but ya.. sighx

i suddenly feel so open. so exposed?

ya.. jez saw ju jie tattling to da jie? whatever.

ya.. jie jez passed me these 2 very pretty board shorts? but ya.. not branded or anythign but ya.. pretty nonetheless.. anyway.. ya.. so nice lorx.. one's orange an the other's red? she cant wear, they are too tight for her? but ya.. too loose for me!!.. i really really want them.. but sighx.. that means i have to put on weight? ahahah.. but ya.. my gosh lorx.. i dun have to unbutton them an i can still put em on? tis bad.. but ya.. so pretty!! i love da jie so much.. sighx.. i do love ju jie too? but sometimes? aiya.. i jez think we'r too similar to really have a good relationship? aiya.. sighx.. siblings. cant live with them. cant live without them.

yea.. so luan. so luan. with everything. life. blerghx