oh my gosh! i jez saw a pair of dragonflies mating? eeew.. i mean, its not as if i wanted to see that? but like, there was this thing flying straight at me? so i was gonna move aside? then i realised it kinda looked a lil funny? an then i realised that that "thing" had like 4 pairs of wings? i thot it was a mutated bug for a mo, then i realised that it was actually 2 bugs? an well, they were mating.. WOW.. what the heck.. they were still flying about? must they like show the whole world they are mating? exhibitionists.. tsk..

anyway.. got let off at 12.30 today.. ha~ wow.. so cool? cuz we finished our prac earlier.. wow.. for once? yeapx.. had a pretty fun prac.. not that it was particularly exciting today.. but ya.. interacted with her today.. was fun.. then haha, i was trying to fill up something with distilled water using my dropper? an i ended up losing my whole dropper in the bottle? eepx!.. well.. it was fun.. ha.. stephy was laughing her head off? but on the other hand, she always laughs her head off at every other thing? heez.. but was nice la.. yeapx..

was kinda upset bout the whole teachers thing? realised this morn while i was taking my bath that, well, we arent close to any of our teachers? like iv already mentioned bout azah. then ms tan? well, after all the problems, wouldn be surprised if she preferred S17? yeapx.. an ms wong.. well, it ms wong y'know? sighx.. robotic wong.. or was that warrior wong? anyway.. then mr tan also.. sighx.. we do know for a fact that he likes his A classes better? think its A5 ah? mmmx.. then now he seems more distant too? sighx.. we used to have mr ng? handsome ng? but now he's no longer teaching us.. its ms choo? but dun think she likes us too.. like that time during nafa? (nafpha? napha? napfa? waaad..) she left us to psycho tay? yea.. sighx.. this doesn feel good y'know? maybe its jez me? but iv never been in a class where we were particularly close to our teachers? yea.. 'cept for primary school la.. ahaha.. yea.. but mmmx.. S18 aint that bad really? jez that our attitudes suck? haha.. but yea.. there's this trip to sentosa tmr? ms tan's organising.. for all her tutorial classes? but dun think i'l be going la.. its mainly a S17 thing? sighx..

anyway.. woke up this morning with a frown on my face.. was wondering why? then i remb'd bout how i was feeling last night.. thought bout it while walking to school? an yeapx.. kinda thought things through.. then was thinking bout what i was thinking in the morning jez now on the walk back? an well, life's tough enough.. why make things even tougher for myself ehx? an well, there are tonsa people out there who are trying ta make life miserable for me, so why should i contribute to the misery? haha.. yeapx.. something like that.. my hearts deadened.. now's not the time seriously. shall really buck up on my work? am totally gonna beat that silly CR in the As? hmpfx.. yea.. tis not that i dun like him anymore? i do.. sighx.. an thats whats making me miserable? these constant thoughts of him. but i know well, tis not what's meant to be? so why agonize myself with these hopes? move on girl~ or rather, stop this for the time being? it'l take time.. a lot of time.. but i'v gotta? time's the limiting factor here.. i havent got much really.. yea.. really have to concentrate on my schoolwork? really really. sighx.. its gonna be hard. everything jez reminds me of him. i cant pick up a piece of schoolwork without thinking of him. but i'v gotta not let that get at me that much i guess? sure think of him, but dun go mooning over him? sighx.. i wonder how's sinyiaw doing? anyway.. ya.. outta point.. mmmx.. not really? cant believed he was one of the first i confided in? heez.. but ya.. hope he's really studying.. but im sure he is.. yeapx.. anyway..


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