why am i being denied of the most basic of things? mmmx.. air? maybe.. sometimes i feel jez so outta breath, so overwhelmed when these thoughts hit me? i dun think im imagining them.. i mean.. i wanna cry.. wanna scream an shout an rant my heart out.. but.. sighx.. i cant? i dunno how to? my fingers feel so weak.. an i feel so raw? an eclipse? wish there was one now.. to cover me, to hide me away from everything.. to block you out.


its been so long..


an no.. i havent told you lately..
an dun think i ever will..
wish i had the courage..