i lost everything. absolutely everything. everything is gone? i was sending a msg just now, an then my phone hung? an now i cant even switch it on? everything? every single thing? all those msg's from him? its all gone? everyone of them? the last time this happened, i still remb? but i had gotten over bastard'boy already? an the day before i even got isk to delete his folder? but now? i havent gotten over him yet. but everything is lost? everything? i dont know why? but thats seriously the first thing that came to my mind? everything? every every everything. i cant take it. i really cant. everything's gone? now it'l only be a mere memory? but i dont want it to be. its been 15 mins since it happened. an i still havent stopped crying. pls stop these tears. pls stop them from flowing. i dont wanna cry. i should be happy? but im not. everything is gone. gone.

an yes. i lost everything. just today i was listening to all those recordings i made last year? with lynette an alvin an everything? now they are all gone. those beautiful msgs that everyone sent me? all gone. including those he sent me... everything. every encouraging msg. everyone. all gone? i feel like a part of me is too? i even planned that should i change phones? i would never trade in that 6510? cuz i would still want everything? but now? i cant even do that. i dont know why im just so attached to that thing. but it really has everything inside? oh gods. what am i gonna do? all my numbers? everything?

anyone who's reading this. pls msg me? if you are reading this, you'd prob be able to contact me in one way or another? pls msg me? seriously.. an the people who's numbers iv lost are those that i usually msg? cuz i would prob have multiple numbers of that person? so its saved in my phone? so really really pls msg me?

oh goodness. it was supposed to be a happy day. but now all i want to do is go cry myself to sleep. im too tired. i cant take this. but yea. you girls? i really did have a great time today.

wenz? thanx so much for everything? im so sorry i cant be here to spend your birthday with you? soso sorry? we'l do another one when i get back yea? soso sorry? an yes girl. you are one of those whose number iv lost? an i really cant remb anyone's number at all? my memory really doth suckth so.. pls msg me? an yea.. really like your color? haha..
jiahui, stephy + pekpek.. finally got to play mahjong with you all? yea.. was fun la? but im really outta touch? yea.. but mm.. thanx for playing? haha..

yea.. i dont know. i really dont know what to do now? i feel like msg'ing people? but those that i'd normally msg are those whose numbers are gone?

oh help