eee.. met maddie today.. haha.. miss her soooo much. then she decided to make me miss her even more? by making me wait like, 45 mins?! sheesh. she's lucky that i was so overwhelmed with love for her that i didn blow my top at her man.. haha..

anyway. mmm.. met xianx? haha.. s'been sooo long. still the same? just more girl i suppose. but yea.. haha.. she's so cute. an yea.. saw huiru!! oh gosh. that girl is like sooo tall? totally totally tall man.. was checking if she was in heels? haha.. but she wasnt! an she's so pretty.. argh.. even angelene is tall!? argh.. im surrounded by tall people.. mmm.. or maybe not. haha *evil grin*

an yea.. went to the motorola thingy with her to get balloons? haha.. cuz i wanted to inhale it. haha.. so fun.. really really? my voice was like, sooo high? haha.. funfunfun! ahaha. yea.. go try it? but not too much? cuz clive says you can die from it. hahaa.. an yea.. my throat kinda hurt after it all? haha.. so yea.. haha.. but sooo funny. then cuz i laughed after i did it? which caused this whole chain of events [which im still hazy bout..] maddie lost her pink balloon? so its my fault. cuz i laughed. [like, what?] but hey.. 'least she got to inhale the whole 5/6 of the remaining balloon? haha.. but it was so funny! we went to a more discrete place to do it? but i dont think that really mattered much. cuz we were laughing sooo loudly? haha

but yea.. miss that girl man.. an her crazy stuffs. imitating me an all.. an i do not talk thaaad funny? haha.. do i? who cares, thats me man.. but mmm.. think she brings out the bimbo in me.. ahaha.. i swear im sucha airhead around her? ahaha.. filled with helium perhaps? ahah.. but seriously man.. haha

anyway.. yea.. clive? mmm.. take care babex.. anything just lemme know man.. *hugx* an yea.. all the best for the 20th thingy yea? i know you can do it!! *waves my dusty forgotten pompoms about wildly*


but well, yea.. still somewhere back in my lil' heart. felt a lil' fuzzy? sighx. i wish it'd go away? mmm.. maybe not now? but hopefully soon. sighx. i want to be really happy again? its not that im not now? but somehow its just different. things are different. but i wish they didn have to be? sighx. i want to be able to do things, without that constant reminder? sighx.. but sometimes, i seek comfort in these lil' reminders, but on the other hand, i do get bugged by them too? ah. i really dont know. i wish i could just un-confuse myself man. blerghx